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Fatboy and Beautiful Celebrate 4 Years of Bliss

Fatboy and Beautiful

Young Love - 2002

Well, not all bliss because it’s a super-rare case where a CFer has 4 years of no issues, and we’ve had more than our fair share of events in our 8 years together and 4 years with our wagons hitched in total solidarity. However, I’d be a fool to not acknowledge that they have by far been my best 4 years of my life.

No doubt

Beautiful has made her anniversary post about all of her memories of our Great Day – October 21, 2006 – on her blog, but I wanted to concentrate on my most emotional memory, which was the sum total of all of my excitement, fear, joy, and anxiety all rolled into about 20 minutes.

My best man slept over with me the night before to help me get everything ready for the day. We ran to the florist next door and got flowers to surprise her with when we walked in late that evening because we were headed on our honeymoon after lunch the next day and then headed to our church.

My big memory was while we were in the kitchen getting dressed in our tuxes, her mom walked in (after making sure we were all decent) for some reason. I have no recollection at all about why she was there with all of the dudes, but I remember asking if Beautiful was beautiful in her wedding dress and ready to do this. “She is very beautiful correction: She’s drop-dead gorgeous,” she said. Crap, I’m tearing up typing this. Big memory, eh?

A moment later, our pastor of the last 12 years of my life, since I was 16 and since she was 16 when they moved to Florida, wanted to run over the vows with me. I guess he’s had grooms have issues with saying their vows, and it’s a good thing he did.

I couldn’t say them.

I would literally choke up to the point that my throat closed and I made a sour face and couldn’t say anything. I popped a Xanax, and another, and another until I could say them. It sounds like a terrible thing to medicate for your vows, but I was overcome with all of the emotions of the moment and didn’t want to let everyone down because I was emotional…

because I wanted to marry Beautiful so badly.

Why did she want to marry me? What did I really have to offer her that such a hot, smart, college graduate couldn’t go out and get on her own? Could I really provide for us? What if I get sick in 5 months – would she regret this day? Why is she marrying me? Me! She has the pick of the world, yet she said “yes” to me! That was why I had to relax. Relax I did, and had the greatest day of my life after that.

She said, “yes.”

Then she said, “I do.”

I do

Happy anniversary, Babe! I love you more today than any day before today and will love you more tomorrow than I do today.

Comments

  1. Determinedleo says:

    Just LOVE this post…. Beautiful… Happy Anniversary!

  2. Way to go!! Major congrats!

  3. Anonymous says:

    Congratulations on this wonderful day. John and I celebrate our 6 year next Saturday. You are blessed to have found each other to walk through this life with.

  4. If my memory serves me right, I believe I answered “she’s drop dead gorgeous”..I guess that was too much for your heart to take at that particular moment. …and why was I in there with the dudes, you ask? I was truly living every moment of that special, once in a life time, day. I would have missed a big part if I hadn’t.
    Happy, blessed, anniversary!!

  5. I got teary-eyed ready what you so wonderfully wrote; I remember your nervousness as well as your excitement!

    Wishing you God’s blessings always,
    Mom

  6. That was a great post, Jesse. I almost cried, too. I knew at the time you were thinking something like that before the wedding. You HAD to be. Not that you’re any slouch; it’s just that we men probably all wrestle with “Why me?” and “Can I really support her?” questions. (We’d better wonder about that if we’re honest with ourselves.) And with your CF, those thoughts had to be even more prominent. But, like your mom & me, Kristin knew your heart pretty well and could see the potential in you. We knew that you would become a great husband with the Lord’s help.

  7. Awwww! My eyes bugged out at the number of Xanax you took, but it sounds like you made it through the ceremony just fine. :]

    • I was fine until the 30 min car ride to the reception. Sooo tired… ๐Ÿ™ At least we were both tired b/c the last photos were in near 90-degree heat and we were sapped.