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Tight, Tight, Tight, But Not Sick

TGHToday I went in for an unscheduled clinic visit because I’ve been having seriously labored breathing.

There have been precious few times that I’ve actually been scared for my mortality because of my breathing (thinking about mortality and having physical feelings are so different). This week was one of them, as I’d climb into bed with my CPAP on, lay down on my side, and actually struggle for breath for a couple of very long minutes. I imagined that I looked like a fish out of water, gasping. My lungs hurt, or at least my ribs did, but it felt like my lungs.

I’ve also had episodes of a stabbing pain in my lower right ribcage, similar to a running stitch in the side about every other time I do my Vest. I have just had a general feeling that my lungs aren’t supple enough to expand or contract any more and that I’m wearing a very tight belt around my chest most of the time. Oh, yeah, and the whole blacking out episode – it’s all making me feel pretty nervous about where my health is at this point.

So, after doing PFTs, Bill said that my volume was up 10mL from last time, so even though I’d gained quite a bit of weight since my last visit, my FEV1 was up 1% to 35% now. What the heck?! I’m not saying that I’m not happy to have better PFTs, but I feel like they are going to think I’m crying wolf soon. I feel terrible, yet I’m still healthy.

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Back on Track After the Weekend

My LAST first day of college, 13 lbs ago.

Same jeans, January 12, 2010.

I noticed over the weekend that my weight was falling because I wasn’t porking out all day out of respect for my wife’s desire to not stuff her face 10x per day. It’s hard to not eat when “everyone else” is eating. However, I also noticed that my jeans were quite snug. Granted, they were some of my oldest jeans, but it’s not like I’ve grown any since I was 18. I still wear a 29-inch waist and can’t imagine needing to move up to a 30 or 31.

They weren’t just snug at the waist (which consisted of a slight roll coming over the waistband), but also my thighs. When I’m driving, I like to have some room down there to keep the blood flowing. I have a bad enough time keeping my legs from doing numb due to a bony butt, I don’t need my clothes impinging blood flow. Nevertheless, I thought this event was going to be limited to those jeans.

Then I put these on this morning. You have no idea how badly I want a before/after shot with these jeans. This is a pair of 29W 30L Levi’s 527’s. They are a low-rise boot cut and are the only jeans I’ve found in the last 3 years that didn’t have a crotch that hangs down to my knees. Despite a perfect fit in the waist, these were seriously baggy in the thighs 2-3 weeks ago. The kind of baggy that leaves one self-conscious when sitting next to people who can and do fill up their pant legs. Now I’m one of those people.

I started out my day with my omelet and we bought 3 6-packs of Boost Plus yesterday, so I can have 3/day for an extra 1,000 Calories/day again. I feel way heavier than yesterday already, and I haven’t even had lunch.

If this keeps up, I will need new jeans. Wouldn’t that be a blessing?!